changes

I'm adjusting to some changes. Mainly my weight. Due to some trial and error with medications in the last few months I've gained over 30 pounds. AGHHHHH!! did I just say that?? It's true. I went from a 100 lb waif a year ago to a 160+ lb woman now. The increase did not take a year, I gained the weight in a super short period of time. I'm still in shock I think. When I see people I haven't seen in awhile I have to psych myself up so I won't chicken out and run away. I'm not saying I hate my body like this. Some days I like it just fine. It's just been a huge adjustment. It look me a long time to accept my body at a normal weight and now I'm looking at it with rolls and dimples I never had before. I've been going to the gym trying to work it off. No starving for me. This is my chance to prove to myself that I can control myself in a healthy way. A loving way. Wish me luck.