Tuesday, March 10, 2009
"Mother-love is not inevitable. The good mother is a great artist ever creating beauty out of chaos" -Alica Randall
This quote was on my Starbuck's cup a few days ago. I like the part where it says "creating beauty out of chaos" because, well, let's face it, my life is chaos about 95% of the time. Can I create something beautiful out of this chaos? Yes I can. I think the problem is that I compare myself so much with what other mom's are doing that my "created beauty" is measured, and judged and then I decide that it's just not as "beautiful" as everyone else's. And then I feel like I'm failing as a mother. We just got done reading "Little House on the Prairie" out loud. I love that book so much. What gets me is the isolation. They only had themselves out there on the prairie at first. They did all the work, they figured out how to entertain themselves and how to build a life without google, or a grocery store, or a friends opinion on every topic that enters into their minds. Not to say that is ALL great ALL the time but I wonder, am I just to stimulated. Am I looking everywhere else for ideas, and opinions, and creativity, and answers, that I have become unable almost to create these things for myself? I want to unplug in some way and create my own "beauty out of chaos" and be satisfied with what that looks like on it's own. How do I do that?