Thursday, February 26, 2009
Days go by
Every morning of the week we say goodbye to John as he goes off to work. Rocky watches as he goes. I give a kiss and then busy myself with the kids and breakfast. He turns his back and walks to his freezing car and drives away. He misses us. Last night words and phrases like "everyday" and "no end in sight" and "jealous of you" were said. Even as I type this tears are springing up. He wants to be with us, he hears of the things we do and he wants to play. He likes his job. We know and accept the roles each of us decided together to have for ourselves. But sometimes the day in and day out of it is hard. I want to step out of the rat race. To go live on a farm and live off of the land. To make things, for John to have a wood shop and a potters wheel. To not NEED so much. I was inspired by this post at The Organic Sister. Maybe I could show it to John and WE could come up with a 5 year plan so he could spend more time home. I believe that we can have anything we want. We just need to plan and prioritize. OK the tears are gone now and I've typed my way into inspiration and motivation. Off to my day now. Breakfast. Bible. Dress up with the kids.(thanks Lorrie or the new clothes!!)Art. and whatever else comes up. Happy Thursday to you.