Tuesday, November 04, 2008

5am

5am
Rocky has been getting up early these days. Very early. I'm wiped out today. Yesterday I was still flowing with the early early schedule, even breaking out the muffin pans before sunrise and making us all some blueberry muffins. Today though, whew. Three kids huh? not sure what we were thinking with that. Today I don't know how to handle taking care of them, their needs, the house, the constant messes being created. I don't know how I'm supposed to fit in time to take care of myself. Spiritually, mentally, physically. Is it OK to sit down while the hurricane swirls around me and just try to find a calm mental space to slip into? It feels like a luxury, like I should keep moving. A giant robot mama who's sweeping arms continually move to swoop up clutter, and stir noodles, and hold hands and play Lego's all at the same time. So anyway I sat. and I wrote. and I held little hands, did laundry, made breakfast, lunch, and dinner, cleaned bathrooms AND so much more. I took time for myself AND played AND did my housework BUT man I am beat. Something has got to give. Maybe tomorrow it will be the laundry, or the kids room, or the dishes. I just can do it all and that has to be OK somehow.

8 comments:

Amy said...

send them to me tomorrow. seriously. we'll work in the mud...

Linda said...

Yes, it's okay to just sit down while the hurricane swirls around you. In fact, sometimes you have to. My mom raised 7 kids, and I can remember that she often would sit and read a book with all 7 of us running around. She became an expert at tuning out unless it was something urgent. And she has been the most wonderful mother and I love her very much.

Anonymous said...

Linda-You said it perfectly!
Heather-Take time first for yourself. Then you will be more prepared to give your full attention to others.
:@)

Lorissa said...

I'm up at 5 a.m. too so I'll be thinking of you. Let the dust bunnies run amok! NO ONE can keep up. If it looks like they do they are neglecting something else or hiding leprechaun helpers in their closets!!!

jenica said...

oh yes, i hear you. sometimes i lock myself in the bathroom, or the closet, sometimes i just need my own time out. and my house is not perfect, that's the thing that gives in our house.

it's all ok. the love of your children is the most important thing. and you are one rockin' mama.

xoxo

vickie said...

yeah i heeeeeearrrr ya loud and clear. sounds like you need some serious time for you. i just wrote a post today which speaks to the same issue....gotta take care of you so you can take care of them. the little ones can wear you down.

warm wishes for renewal!

Renee said...

5am, huh? Yikes, I'd be dead. Hope the day was okay.

molly said...

oh boy do I hear you! There are so many times that I feel this way too. Please know that you are sooo not alone in that. I believe it's ok. Enjoy your Thanksgiving!