Wednesday, June 25, 2008

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I went out and got myself a journal and a therapist yesterday. The jounal to write in, the therapist to talk to. It's time to do some work, the hard work, the internal work that I must do to live this life. I've done this kind of digging before, and now I've found myself neck up in dirt again and in need of a hand and a shovel. I don't think there is anything shameful in seeking therapy. I don't think that getting a therapist means that my husband or friends or God are not enough. For me it just means I need another perspective and fresh insight. It took me awhile to admit I needed it this time. I like to drudge along on my own awhile until I find myself face down in a puddle of mud unable to get up. Well it's wasn't that bad, but I knew it was time. Luckily I have the most wonderful supportive loving partner anyone could have. So anyway, that's where I am right now. Happy shoveling.

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

its always nice to have someone to talk to. move back to sacramento....that is what your therapist will say : )

luv ur crazier sis,
Heidi :)

AmyDe said...

Dig Deep! Prayers for you and yours - I know that life can be pretty dark at times.

Chris said...

Good for you! I am sure you will feel better soon which will make for a happier hubby and kids.

Amy Chionis said...

Oh Heather- You are strong and wise for caring for yourself. Enjoy this part of your journey - and call me if you want to compare sand piles, ha ha. You are loved over here in Benen and Amy land.

Renee said...

Therapy is always a good thing. I hope it helps.

Allison said...

Thank you for your honesty and for your bravery! Once again, I am inspired after reading your blog. I'm digging through my own "stuff" right now and am convinced that the results will be worth the dig. The bits of recovery that I've experienced are blissful. If you read my blog, I don't think you would ever know something so deep is going on with me. That's why I think you are so brave and appreciate what you can do that I can't. Maybe one day I will be able to be so real.

Helen said...

Go Heather!! I'll be rooting you on. We've all got some digging to do. I admire you for taking it seriously.

Marz said...

You are in fact a brave woman. And I love this photo! I am happy for you to be doing this hard work!
Much love & prayers as you build your internal & spiritual muscles!
xoxoxo Maritza

Kristi said...

Good for you! I've chosen the counseling many different times in my life for various reasons. And I can honestly say that I've loved every bit of it.

Be open, prayerful, and incredibly honest and you will get the help you so richly desire AND deserve!

Sivan said...

Heather, I envy you and can't wait for the day I'll be doing the same! I believe we all need a therapist, since non of us have all the tools to handle life the way we should.
Good luck finding the right therapist for you and have a healthy and satisfying journey!

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The Whole Self said...

happy shoveling is right! you go girl! xx

cheri said...

that's a beautiful picture. good lick with the therapy. there's also spa therapy :)

cheri said...

that was supposed to be luck not lick...

catches_fireflies said...

I am the daughter of a type of therapist... but the offspring of such sometimes gets the reputation the same as preachers' kids. We can end up a little neurotic, since the parents in these careers sometimes get so busy attending to their patient's or congregation's needs they sometimes neglect their own needs and possibly those closest to them. I wanted to do some inner work when I was younger and was deterred because,"there couldn't be anything wrong with my child." I finally did inner work when I became an adult and a new mother myself and I LOVED IT. I thought for awhile I could possibility even be addicted to therapy (yes, we all could all benefit from a little therapist following us around...) but really I wasn't addicted to therapy (the way having someone to open up to and help open myself up made me feel) I was addicted to growth, and there is nothing wrong at all with that. Good luck on your search for a good therapist. Sometimes it'll take a couple of times before you find the right one but you WILL find the right one!

jenica said...

awesome. i hope you dig deep and find beautiful and mysterious things... even when it's scary and painful.

xoxo

catches_fireflies said...

For a light-hearted look at "investigating the dark places," or for just taking out some me-time check out the author S.A.R.K. (short for Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy) and her colorful books if you haven't already.

Anonymous said...

Oh, Amen Heather. You are so right. There is nothing wrong with seeking therapy. It's just another perspective. I'm proud of you for going the extra mile. If that is what you feel God has led to do than follow Him. Love you always,
M. Pratt